I think "Crazy" is the only way I can describe things right now. Emma and Olivia are getting into EVERYTHING!!!!!! So if I accomplish anything during the day, it is a miracle. It seems like we are going through a phase right now where they are all very much needing attention. For example, if I'm sitting down where the twins can sit on my lap, they will sit and then they will go about their business and venture off...however, if I stand up, they will cry. So even though I'm not holding them or for that matter, doing anything, I have to be sitting down just in case they want to come back over and sit on me. Olivia also does the thing right before she gets to me where she'll turn around and then walk backwards until she gets to my lap and then sit down. I seriously would love to get a back-up beeper for her.

Emma is much quieter but still demanding. She soaks her shirt daily drooling. Her and Olivia are cutting their last 4 mollars. Olivia has 2 to go and Emma has 3. It's so much fun!! O.k. so maybe not. : )

Alyssa likes school but she doesn't like office time. I guess this is where they have to put up these barriers so they can't cheat off the others papers. I don't think she wants to cheat, she just wants to socialize. Who knows??

Loren is regressing some with her talking...she is talking more baby talk and I know it's cuz she thinks it's cute and she wants some more attention. How much attention do these people need?????????????????? Aughh!!

Loren is very close to being potty trained. We might go and try to buy some big girl panties this weekend. She has some at home but I think it might mean some more for her to pick them out herself. We'll give it a try.

Mike and I are so done with traveling. We have overdone it this summer and we seriously need a break!!! But I have a feeling that won't happen until January.

As far as health goes, I meet with my urologist tomorrow morning to hear what is going on. I know he wants the surgeon who aspirated my cyst to take over until we know that it hasn't grown back but I don't know much more than that. In my opinion, if there is a chance this will turn into cancer, I say we just take it out. Then we won't have to worry. I have a feeling that the chance of that is smaller so they'll prefer to just watch it. We'll see what he'll say tomorrow.
Emma seems to be doing well. We have transitioned her over to just liquid. That is fun! She does very well drinking it. She is eating well. I don't know how much she weighs so I don't know if it has affected her. Last weight we had was 14 lb. 9 oz. I'll be anxious to see what her next weight is. She is one strong girl I just say. The H1N1 scares me for her. I don't know that her lungs and weight can handle getting that. So we'll see...

Everyone else seems to be pretty healthy. We will be going to Alyssa's yearly Cleft Clinic November 12th. She hasn't been for 2 years though. I'm anxious to see when they will start working with her mouth. She has lost 2 teeth and I know that might affect their decision as to when she will have her bone graft and oral surgery. Also, she will need to have her hole in her ear closed soon too.

I think I'm at a stage where I'm tired of everyone evaluating Emma because there is obvious pressure with that. For the most part, I feel that she needs more time. But by feeling that way, I wonder if I'm right and therefore, am I doing the best thing for her? It's just how it is. I don't think that feeling can go away. I think it's probably just part of being a mother.

There is a doctor I've thought about taking Emma to in Florida. He is a homeopathic doctor. We will be getting closer to the possibility of Emma getting growth hormones. This is a shot every single day for years. This is also $20,000 a year. It is looking like insurance will not cover it. Which leads me to possibly taking Emma to this doctor who is my best friend's dad. His visit, which I think involves 3 days), would be $1,200. But I think it would be worth it. The twins are 17 months and we will start talking about these growth hormones as we get closer to 2 years old. So...it's just something that is in the back of my mind.

I am to the point where I need a break but I need it in my own home. I know that sounds crazy but I have so much to do here and so many little people trying to help me out that I might as well sit down and forget it. : )

Well, Alyssa and Loren are fighting over candy so I must go break it up. I love what sugar does to these people. Aughh!!!!!

Love to you all!!
Bethany